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Thursday, June 22, 2006

When I fell in love........

Unlike a lot of Hindi Movies, it wasnt love at first sight for me. When i saw her for the first time, I wasnt much impressed . She was a bespectacled, simple girl, though on the cuter side. Mind you, although simple , she wasn't the seedhi-saadhi types . She was sexy in her own way . After so many years , the most abiding memory of our first meeting is that of her eyes. They were alive . Even through her glasses, they conveyed so much without her saying a word. And she didnt speak much . I remember our first few meetings were dominated vocally by me with some little
garnishings provided by her. I still don't know why i thought that i should be friends with this girl .

Anyway, the story progresses. We became good freinds, although her friend was a much closer friend of mine. All this time, I had some sort of an attraction towards her. IT wasn't love for sure and definitly not infatuation. But i wanted her to talk to me. If she talked to other boys , it made me a trifle irritated. And this feeling of
irritation irritated me even more . I would call her up and talk for 20-30 minutes. I also felt frustrated that she didn't open up a lot. While i poured out my heart's contents to her, she never told me about her personal feelings. She would be very gaurded when wew talked about her or others. I was forever confused about her feelings and also my feelings. Did I love her ? Did she even look at me that way ?

Slowly but surely, we became very good freinds. She started opening up . I realized what a wonderful person she was. And so much different from me. While I was outgoing & carefree , she was a shy and introvert type of girl .I was very temperamental, inclinced to go off the boil at the slightest opportunity, she was the very picture of calmness. I was a voracious reader, she didn't like books. I loved Action and Sci-Fi movies, she loved the mushy mushy romantic movies. And yet we had something in common (other than our love for Chinese Food :) . I was never able to
put my finger on it . Maybe it was something that we both felt for each other .

Time went on, our first year at college finished, but my confusion didnt. We had a 20 days break and i went home . Was i in love ? Is this how it feels when you are in love ? should i ask her too ? I think about time i got off from the train , i was pretty sure that i loved her. But i didnt i had the courage to ask her . I didnt want to spoil the beautiful friendsship that we had . And i was mortally afraid of her refusal to my proposal . I kept wondering of i should call her up and tell her about my feelings. But i didnt . the Distance between us made me miss her even more . I realized that i was gone ; hook,line and sinker.

I didnt propose to her even after coming back . My lack of knowledge of her feelings made me hold back . However, there was a change in her attitude post holidays . She became more open . We talked a lot . And i sometimes caugh the same look in her eyes which i had in my eyes. Should i propose or not ? Then came the fateful day (August 30th ) when i caught hold of her diary . I quickly read it (Yeah, I am ashamed of it now ) and saw what she had written about a special friend - Me. That was when i realized that she also felt the same way . And the next day was the most beautiful day of my life. Because it was on August 31st , that i proposed to her . And more importantly, it was the day, when she said yes to be my partner for life :) .

14 Comments:

  • Wow!!! Really as u told me,i didnt know many things.I dont believe that you were scared to ask me.Ha ha.Its a very sweet article.Thank you for 31aug!!! ;)

    By Anonymous Chi, at June 22, 2006 6:18 PM  

  • alls well that ends well!!

    liked your story very much.. gave me inspiration to write something to my girl..
    thnks

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at June 23, 2006 2:32 AM  

  • Hey Phooka...
    her diary had made up u to reach at the conclusion...Congrats bro...
    Thou i dunno know u very well and m just a regular reader of ur blog,it seems that u r such a nice person.And all these days which u have mentioned in the concerned posting are the days to be cherished.
    chill!!

    By Blogger Harry, at June 23, 2006 8:39 PM  

  • @ Harry , thanks for the complement dude :)

    @anon , how will i read your story ;)

    @ Chi , Haah.....what can i say :)

    By Blogger Phooka, at June 23, 2006 11:40 PM  

  • Ahhhhaaaaaaaa...........
    Cho chweet :):)
    Waise ask chi if she has any single friend(s) who also write dairy ;)

    By Blogger coolvir, at June 24, 2006 1:54 PM  

  • saale copycat cool :)

    By Blogger Phooka, at June 24, 2006 3:33 PM  

  • Hee hee kul ;)

    By Anonymous chi, at June 24, 2006 5:32 PM  

  • :(( **blowing runny nose** **bucketful of tears**


    senti ho gaya :(


    sigh ...mera no kab ayega?

    By Blogger SUNMAY, at June 24, 2006 8:58 PM  

  • Mat ro Sunmay Beta ...aayega tera bhi number

    By Blogger Phooka, at June 25, 2006 9:53 AM  

  • you expressed it so beautifully.. made me wanna cry..lol.. well i didnt do that.. but this is post is sweet.. you and ur partner for life are both very lucky to have each other!! may you always be happy together :-)

    By Blogger Neha, at June 26, 2006 4:54 PM  

  • Thanx a lot Neha :)

    By Blogger Phooka, at June 26, 2006 10:46 PM  

  • Hmmm well we heard the same thing at buddha's home but reading it was really cool n different. Good Luck to both of u guys.

    By Blogger Rahul Malpani, at August 15, 2006 12:33 AM  

  • Its a beautiful story.. reminds me of something.. so its all the more beautiful.. wishing u n ur love all the luck..

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at September 06, 2006 12:32 AM  

  • thank u Vishu

    By Blogger Phooka, at September 06, 2006 1:26 AM  

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