Musings........

Is five years really a long time ? I was 19 5 years ago . Was it the right decision to take a decision which was going to change my life. At 19, I was just into college. Still finding my feet . Life was no hassles . College, fun , timepass , studies, cricket and movies were the only thing i cared about . Where was the place for a relationship . What did I know of relationships . What it takes to make a relationship happen . I did not have any idea . And yet , i committed . Committed to a life with one girl . I was as much reponsible to her as I was to me . She trusted me . She loved me . And i guess that was enough .

Today , As I stand on the threshold of starting a new life, i look back on that fateful day and try to imagine what my life would have been without that moment of madness . And frankly, it is unimaginable . It is as if the past five years have been written in indelible ink, which i cannot rub off nor can ignore for even one moment. For me , it is life till 19 and the life from 19 to 24. Till 19 , I was alone and happy . Since then, I am with her and satisfied. There is no doubt in my mind that I would do the same thing again if I had to go back 5 years . Probably, do it earlier. As i look at her smile , the love in her eyes, the only thing which comes to my mind is to thank her for making my life so wonderful . And I am sure as long as I can see that smile, that trust, my life will be wonderful .

I cannot describe how falling in love means. It is something that cannot be explained. It , well, just has to be experienced . Even today i wonder what is love. Is it the fact that her smile can make my day , or her words can cheer me, or her touch can electrify me , her tears can kill me . My sucess can be hers, her failures can be mine . Silence can speak a thousand words, eyes can convey a lot . Is it the longing i feel to meet her . Well love is all of this and none of this. Experience it and you will understand what I am talking about.